tmr is very near..

im down.. not emotional, cos im conscious about what im down for.. many things contributed to it.. many many.. sometimes u jus feel hopeless.. u know u've done everything, but the outcome isnt what u've yearn for.. u feel sad, u feel sorrow, u feel hopeless.. don talk about "never give up" or "try again".. it's jus some sentences to carry on the conversation..

i dont wan to list them all out here.. it's more about my fren.. my good fellow colleague fren who's gonna tender her resignation letter tmr..

i met her for the first time in bintulu.. we r both from kch, yet we knew each other in bintulu. she was sent from kch to bintulu to help me out with stats. it was indeed a pretty tough time at that time.. all those complaints, blames, stress, work work work.. we've endured.

i remembered we stayed together while we were there. she likes cooking and she makes nice food. she cooked some chicken paste (i forgot the real name.. she always corrected me when i said that, but i still like to say it's chicken paste) for me.. brought to office or weekends at home.

one day, i had party and went back late. i slept the whole day till 4pm sth.. she was so shocked, cos she woke up in the morning, making breakfast.. then watched tv, did laundry, did reading.. then made lunch.. then watched tv.. then took a siesta. she woke up from her siesta and i was still nowhere to be found (still inside my bedroom!). she's got freaked out and called other colleagues.. they kept calling me, waking me up.. till i went out of the room, and she was relieved! there, she said.. this was the first time she ever knew a person could sleep so long.. we even mentioned about this again occasionally.

there are so many more that i couldnt manage to type them all out.. funny, crazy, funky, serious, ups and downs.

this evening, she said she's gonna tender her resignation letter tmr.. wah, i was in shocked! tmr?! even though she has said about this since last year.. but it has never came into mind for quite some time dy.. and suddenly.. it's tmr?!! she's leaving to overseas.. and we can hardly meet dy. and.. we can only talk during lunch when she's having breakfast there!

aiyo.. the current module is only involving me and her. if she leaves, i'll be alone. and i've no one to complaint anymore.. no one to say "yer deh~!" anymore.. oohh maybe still got two.. but no one gives the emotionless expression anymore.. haiyz

ohh no, so emotional.. but im truly happy for her.. reuniting with her hubby. i know she has complicated feelings.. happy to reunite with her hubby, but sad to leave her family. but going there is definitely a brilliant choice! gonna miss u girl.. u must be happy always, God bless u abundantly *hugs hugs*