if..

.:: some thoughts from some articles ::.

how to not remember.. when it's already been engraved into the memory deeply

how to not cry.. when i look back at pictures filled with laughters, i cry instead

how to not heartpain.. when u rather hurt urself than letting me know

how to not heartbreak.. when u rather let me go than holding me dearly

how to not hurt.. when even in my dreams, we are holding hands tightly

how to stop missing u.. when what u do is constantly swimming in my mind

how to stop thinking about u.. when whenever, whichever, whatever i see, it's all about u

how to stop concerning u.. when there's long silence, i lost my mind

how to stop caring.. when i rather secretly sorrowfully hurt than knowing u losing a smile

how to forget.. when u r the first one to appear in my mind for everything that i wanna share with

if u are given another chance.. will u still fall..

if im not falling for u.. then i dont have sorrows

if im not falling for u.. there's no misery of losing u

if im not falling for u.. then i wont give u my whole heart

if im not falling for u.. i wont feel so depressed for not being able to be together with u forever

if im not falling for u.. i wont feel so helpless and hopeless and lifeless

if im not falling for u.. i wont feel life is so meaningless

if im not falling for u.. then i wont lose myself and have hard time finding it back

if one day i say..
if there's another chance again, i will not fall for u.. will u be able to understand my feeling?

no i dont, cos there's no that one day.