dream?

Just a random story..

I've been looking for her for few days.. goodness, where is she.. she's not in her room, her house, backyard.. I should be looking harder.. maybe I should go further.. it's so cold outside the house, 3 freaking degress.. or perhaps subzero.. or maybe not.. putting on the thick attire, hat and gloves.. i embark from the house..

Passing by a lot of beautiful parks.. i stand amazed at the beautiful trees and the placid lake.. "move on, u gotta find her.." ok, i draw myself back.. i should get moving.. but where should i start finding? calling instinct.. "go wherever u r comfortable in..." ok, if instinct says so..

The pathway is leading up to a small hill.. maybe she would be there counting the stars.. but it's not night time now.. walking by the ample woods n trees, plants n flowers.. im finally here.. im standing on the grassy blanket of the peak.. the peak is glowing in resplendency, the flowers are beckoning in magnificence.. anyone could easily leave their hustle bustle minds behind, and blend together in this breathtaking sight. looking around apprehensively, i catch a familiar figure. she is there, yes she is there.. lying on the grassy carpet in solitary.. she idlely rests her watery eyes on the starry sky.. i lay down besides her..

She is stagnant, so i break the silence.. "I've been looking for u for days honey.. im very worried.."
Softly.. 'I'm very sorry..'
"Are you here for days already...?"
She nods.

'I'm upset.. i dunno what to do.. mindless and clueless, i'm running away.. i don wan anyone to be unhappy.. i didnt expect to see anyone here not even u..'
'I'm the cause of misery.. but tell me.. how.. how to minimize it..... and i.. i miss...'

"Are u coming back home with me..?"

'I dunno.. i dunno.. i really dunno.....'

It is snowing, now.. suddenly, she pointed out her right hand to a distance.. 'look.. 2 lambs strolling aimlessly on the velvety grass there, being so lame..'

I look.. the picturesque scene of the peak occupies the entire sight, and i could not see a single lamb..

'hey.. there, there is rainbow! snowing and i see rainbow!'

She turns to me and hugs me.. she cries heartily, and she cries everything all out..
'am i dreaming? why am i seeing all the good things altogether? or.. is it the.. end...?....'
'is there anything forever...?'

"I cant tell honey... believe it with ur heart..."
"...i guess... good friends are forever..."

"Are you coming back home with me, now..?"

'Pls.. let me stay here for a while.. let me ponder on what u said.. i'll go back with u once i've gained composure.. don worry..'

dream..

Just a random story..

It's been days the girl's mind is drifting.. sitting in front of the piano.. she is playing and she couldnt concentrate.. she stops, her fingers are tenderly resting on the black and white keys.. she is idling, her mind has travelled far far away..

is her mind occupied? or is it blank? it's really hard to tell.. for there are many things wrestled inside that small little mind..

suddenly she feels warm tear drops on her hands. she gains composure, getting her attention on the drops.. it's so crystal clear.. she gets up and rests herself on the comfortable sofa.. dreaming...

dreaming is really powerful... it makes all things possible, it makes all things happen as u've directed.. u r on top of the world with that act of pure imagination at your own solitary, finding solace..

but.. it also brings confusion.. like.. "u dream u were a butterfly, flitting around in the sky.. then wake up and wonder.. am i a girl who dreams of being a butterfly, or am i a butterfly who dreams that i am a girl?"

and.. waking up.. is the hardest part..

she closes her eyes, let her mind dominates.. she never know that john mayer's song is so mind stirring.. and she doesnt know why does this song even come to the fore.. listening to it.. and this time, the eyes are not obedient again..



the song is flowing in all dimensions..

God is really nice, He has provided everyone ample choices at all times.. she's blessed with ample blessings, and she knows God treats everyone equally..

suddenly it's time to wake up from dream... though waking up is really the hardest part..

she opens her eyes, wipes her tears from her watery eyes.. time and tide wait for no man, what is bygone is bygone.. what choice has made has made.. at least.. she feels.. at least she once had the dream which seems so real..

in remembrance of vic..

I've prohibited myself from accessing facebook since the news.. cos i know i couldnt take it.. when i saw ample condolences messages.. it happened just too sudden.. the last commented message was on 11.02.2010.. and he didnt wake up after that... God has called him back to His Kingdom.. we would not know the reason why..

He left us.. i've accepted the fact.. he has physically left us.. he brought his charms to gladden us and should his stay be brief.. we'll always have his memories as a solace in our grief.. his memories will always remain in our hearts.. therefore he's always with us..

Dear God, im praying sincerely from the bottom of my heart.. may him rest in peace.. grant strength to his family.. he shone beautifully when he was here, and therefore he will always be forever.. the journey of his life is never end.. even when the time has raced ahead.. but he will always live in us.. may the tender memories soften their grief.. may the fond reminiscence bring them relief.. may they find comfort and peace in the thought of these memories that he has brought to us.. dear God, please hear my prayer.. in God's almighty name, Amen..

Quoted from Bible..
"Ecclesiastes 3:1 - A Time for Everything"
1 For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

In remembrance of Vic... u r always with us... for ur memories remain in us.. R.I.P.

in remembrance..

Yesterday.. and the day before.. i saw a lot of photos being uploaded to facebook.. i checked out his albums.. celebrating bday with his dear gf.. a lot of beautiful loving pictures..

I received a call from my best fren, couple of hours ago.. this fren.. has left us.. no, i cannot accept it.. neither do my best fren.. i got shocked, and i couldnt control my tears.. i kept myself alone in the dark conference room.. alone with mind fully occupied.. memories flashed back.. university times he has spent great deal of time with us.. made our days there so meaningful.. and graduation trip.. it was simply awesome... face was tear-wrecked unconciously..

I texted my best fren.. we talked.. we feel each other's presence and sorrow.. but the pain is too immensed.. we need to calm down respectively.. in deep solitary..

trying hard to gain composure.. i checked back a few pictures in fb.. the grief surfaced and i couldnt control again... im very very sorry to hear this... im very very sorry... he's been such a dearie fren to all of us.... we will miss u dearly....

my girlfriends

Found this when i browsed through my Pictures folder.. sa po, u were not in the pic during sept.. seemed like something's missing. miss u lahh.. haha today we talked about sauna, it's been quite some time since i stepped into sauna now.. haha missed that time.. the 'gan chiong' time.. life has been fun, we played till the fullest hahaha

muakss.. we'll definitely meet and take the pic again ^^ hugssss

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*got this from Robin's fb.. hahaha

DistanCe

"If u r driving and u feel that the distance of ur car and the object besides u are very near.. fear not.. cos the fact is.. the distance of the so-called 'near' is actually still far.. it can still pass through AN ELEPHANT!"

Today i was passing a narrow 2-way pathway, and there was a car coming from opposite.. so i kept nearer to the side divider.. and i din even feel it's near, and it jus knocked on the divider! i was shocked too.. where's the elephant? ishh.. im gonna take back that statement!

pls dont think that the distance is still far that an elephant could pass through.. it might jus be the gap of a doggy.. so bring out ur mind and IQ eg. 148, dont keep in the closet! :P