granny be strong

The nerve pain in the gum is unbearable.. she lies there quietly, without a word or sound of grumbling.. she couldnt really bite/chew on food, for the pain she has to endure is way beyond any words could describe. at times, tears go rolling down her cheeks.. she bears, she takes it all by herself..

She likes to talk.. about her old tales, about history, about her past.. when she was so much younger and stronger.. perhaps i could say she's talkative, but she couldnt talk.. because of the pain.. she presses her fingers wrapped in handerchief on her gum.. pressing very very hard, she's thinking if she could numb the nerve pain by implying external pain.. she couldnt..

She could hardly bite any food.. she's relying on soft, watery food or drinks..

We visited her the other day.. her nerve pain was reduced.. but she looked so fragile and frail.. she had been vomitting for the past few days.. it's either u get nerve pain or u vomit.. she lost weight.. she sat up when she saw us.. she's very sweet.. very understanding..

After a while, she said she's tired.. she needed to lie down.. but she carried on talking.. she looked at me with tender eyes, she asked.. "do u understand me?" im learning to pick up the dialect.. i couldnt completely understand, but from the tone of voice, i know it's something touching and meaningful.. i know it's meant well, i felt it with my heart..

Granny.. u must be strong.. u wanna see us in white suit.. we are going to wear it.. i know u r very happy but u r too weak to smile broadly..

Granny.. u must have the determination.. i know u r very exhausted of fighting with the disease.. i know u r bearing intolerable pain.. i know where u want to go.. i know u always think of us.. i know u'll be happy..

We love you granny.. u must be strong.. dear God, we pray for your loving grace and healing hands to be upon granny.. amen.

Stress

Element Name: Stress [noun]

Cause: bad to skin and hair

Effect: not leng leng dy..

It is by research that stress causes skin problems.. well it causes or exacerbates a lot of problems, but I just want to pinpoint on how stress causes our oily skin and scalp.. bad bad 'chemical'..

I know u must be thinking that stress can be good as a motivational and inspirational agent, i dont deny that, yes it can be good if we know how to use it to make things happen positively. fortitude.

However extreme stress hormones that overflows into our system can adversely affect us mentally and physically, i think it's called mind-body physiology.. and that includes our skin and hair.

Studies have illustrated that when u are under extreme stress, there is an increase in the amount of androgen production. When androgen is activated, the sebaceous glands pumps out more oil/sebum. Stress could come from anything mentally or physically or chemically.. im not sure if u could be stress out of nothing. Hence disgusting oily skin.. big pores.. 'shiny' t-zone..

In addition, and due to stress, the circulation in the scalp is so constricted that the hair follicles lost blood supply.. then u'll notice hair will atrophy and fall out. well.. sometimes it often grows back when u are no longer under extreme stress, but dont be too happy yet..

If u have continuous extreme stress that u leave unmanaged or cannot manage, u are actually working ur adrenal glands to exhaustion. Hence, skin and hair problems become apparent.. because hor.. u r constantly shutting off the blood supply to ur heart and lungs, diverting it away from feeding and nourishing.

Now u know why stress can uglify a person.. because of stress and become not leng leng, not worth oh.. so far, i guess there's no treatment yet to completely stop or prevent sebum production, but there should be a lot of remedy in combating stress.. im still researching haha but i've some suggestions here~

LAUGHTER

SMILE

BE HAPPY

BE SIMPLE

BE EASY

BE FREE

DONT BINGE ON DRINKING/ALCOHOL

JUST BE YOURSELF

The World's Greatest

To those who have been
disheartened, discouraged, demoralized, dispirited, dismayed, dejected, debased, devalued, depreciated, deprecated..

Life is the movie you see through your own unique eyes. It makes little difference what's happening out there. It's how you take it that counts.

You should always be aware that your head creates your world.

You know what.. You are Awesome and the Greatest~!

"The World's Greatest"

Yeah,Uhh...Uhh...Yeah..
It's the worlds greatest,
Yo,It's the worlds greatest,
Come on,Worlds Greatest, Ever

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
Oh, I am a swift wind
Sweepin' the country
I am a river
Down in the valley
Oh, I am a vision
And I can see clearly
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

[Chorus]
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest

And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it mmm
I'm the worlds greatest

I am a giant
I am an eagle
I am a lion
Down in the jungle
I am a marchin' band
I am the people
I am a helpin' hand
And I am a hero
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

[Chorus]
I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
I made it
I'm the worlds greatest

And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the worlds greatest

In the ring of life
I'll reign love(I will reign)
And the world will notice a king(Oh Yeah)
When all is darkest,
I'll shine a light(Shine a light)
And use a success you'll find in me(Me)

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the world's greatest

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the world's greatest

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the world's greatest

[*] It's the greatest
Can you feel it
It's the greatest
Can you feel it

[Repeat * while:]
I saw the light
At the end of a tunnel
Believe in the pot of gold
At the end of the rainbow
And faith was right there
To pull me through, yeah
Used to be locked doors
Now I can just walk on through
Hey, uh, hey, hey, hey
It's the greatest
I'm that star up in the sky

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the world's greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my back's against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the world's greatest

little boy and little girl

story about a little boy and a little girl
[touching story from facebook]

little boy and little girl accidentally met during their adolescence.. days of simpleness, innocence, immaturity, naiveness.. days of no worries, no commitments, only laughters.. so carefree, so casual. they got along very well, they talked to each other about anything from infinity to infinity, they talked almost everyday.. it was this time they started to learn what was being comfortable with another human being like.. and the lesson got deeper, and they learnt what was missing you.

they had the all happiest sweet time period before reality shook them out from this. they had to be separated.. and it was with no other options. boy left.. no promise.. not even bidding any goodbyes.. not even turning back.. not even leaving any contacts..

silence is the response to the all time sweetness..

........some good ample years later........

boy and girl accidentally met.. again. boy and girl accidentally talked. the first encounter was like two unfamiliar, not-closed friends.. they met more more frequently, and they talked more.. from unfamiliar friend to familiar friend. reminiscence recollected pieces by pieces.. good old beautiful pieces.. but they kept to themselves.

they got along very well again.. they learnt more than what they had learnt during adolescence.. but they kept to themselves. they had the all happiest sweet time period.. sweeter than before.. sweetest.. but once again reality shook them out from this the second time.

this time.. it's hard to make promise, it's hard to bid goodbyes, it's hard to turn anywhere, it's hard not to leave contacts.. they need to break up, and the reason is not becos of feeling. the hardest thing about breakup is breaking up without reason. they need to break up, becos of life.. girl has tremendous surrounding pressures that boy is not aware of, and there is no need to be told of. sinful.. girl's aware.

heartbreak is the response to the all time sweetness..

........some good ample years later........

boy and girl talk.. and smile reminiscing all the collects..

uglify is an art

uglify is an art,
and the art is abstract..

Today is my first day wearing it~
uber CooL, i clicked 'LIKE'~ oK Ok not leng? i dont care lor....... i like leh!! :P
:: khalil fong :: - similar specs~ hahaha mine bigger than his, im more kiasu~ kaka

when i firstly got this specs..

pap: ah girl, u look weird.. hrm.. look like somebody else..
[i was in a mess that night, and i put that on..]

the next day.. when i was properly dressed up, and walking down the staircase..

pap: ee.. ah girl, u dont look like yday's.. hrm.. u look weird still, like somebody else

me: haha pap u r photostate machine meh.. u already said the same thing yday, u photocopying now again har..

pap: i tot u looked out of ur age yday, over matured with that specs.. but now u look NICE!

me: aiseh......... ^.^ *shy shy*

this barney really caught my eyes out of the ocean of bags.. so cute isnt it?! haha im bringing it back! for what..? i dunno... nah, just kidding.. who say i like dinosaur now?!

dark choc talks

Delicious macadamia nuts coated with a thin layer of crunchy toffee and covered in rich creamy dark chocolate.. please imagine how this gradually melts in your mouth and being sent down to your esophagus~ so hangg fuk nehh~~~ so yummy, esp it's DARK CHOC! given by my bestie n he said he aint gonna look at the pic.. so i've got no choice but to post up on my blog wakaka it's too delicious not to be posted nehh!! *wonderful* ^^

Aiseh.. HEALTHY NUTS [eat a lot also wont get pimples.. very safe to eat de...]

Fact	Macadamias are an excellent source of polyunsaturated and monounsaturated fats - the good fats, which can help manage cholesterol
Fact	Macadamias contain Vitamin E, an antioxidant that helps protect tissues from damage
Fact	Macadamias add fibre to your diet
Fact	Macadamias help lower blood cholesterol levels and reduce the incidence of heart disease
Fact	Macadamias also contain unsaturated oil, protein, carbohydrate, minerals and NO cholesterol

toilet bowl

toilet bowl is such a great invention, salute to its inventor! it obediently absorbs all the unwanted waste that u din even wan.. galloping into its system..

sometimes u jus throw the unwanted waste in an unorganized way or in a speed too fast for it to digest that it apparently detests but still it utters no other complaints, but quietly eats ur digested food with great 'pleasure' (well i din know how it feels actually.. i nv asked..) and then... aiks, geli neh.. ok ok i don have to elaborate further *.*

ok once in a while it throws tantrum.. oh gosh, that's the last thing u would hope it happens!

but all in all.. im so glad it's been fixed!! >>salute<< im jus impressed how that little thing could save the world!

a friend in need is a friend indeed~ OohHHh
toilet bowl, u rock!

原来人是如此脆弱的
原来人是这样软弱的
原来人是很渺小的
原来人是很无助的
原来人是很无奈的
原来我也只是个人

ur eyes degrees hv been stagnant

im always afraid to visit 2 professions.. 1st, dentist.. 2nd, optician.. so lame? heehee.. cannot meh..?

today i finally visited optician.. jus suddenly feel like getting a specs.. jus suddenly feel like wanting to wear a specs.. a full frame one.. taking out much courage.. i finally stepped in the optical shop. i looked so weird on specs, esp those with frames. sometimes (sometimes only) i like my eyes, so they seem to be covered by those lens and big frames..

so the SA gave me frameless to try on.. it looked jus so common.. well since i really feel like wanting a specs, so i was thinking if that would do.. luckily i spotted on some framed ones, before confirming on the frameless haha

after much debating within myself on the frames, i finally settled with 1 full frame haha and the toughest part came.. i gotta test my eyes!!!!! the last thing i would wan to hear was... 'ur degrees have increased..' but i've got no choice, since i want a specs.. so with no choice, i was examined..

HAHAHA i wouldnt believe it, no one would!! my degrees had been stagnant since.. hrm.. ages like 10 yrs ago.. the degrees are still exactly the same!! woohooo~ how overjoyed! this is the best thing i've heard today!!! i wouldnt be afraid anymore if i were to go visit optician next week again wakaka ^^

mo tiun tiun's

so weird these two days.. hin hin @.@

have been..
'mo tiun tiun' sneezing,
'mo tiun tiun' r.e.m on the right eye,
'mo tiun tiun' drank cucumber juice for the very first time.. aiks, i never really liked cucumber,
'mo tiun tiun' woke up at 6.52am today.. thinking it's 7.30am.. couldnt sleep back,
'mo tiun tiun' be the first to reach workplace in the ENTIRE company (entire company, not office only..) today,
'mo tiun tiun' did FRONT parking unconsciously for the very first time in office today,
'mo tiun tiun' went against my research and parked at the space near office building today

hrmm.. it is only morning now.. i think i really need a nice sweet siesta later.. else i dunno what other 'mo tiun tiun' it would be during practise later

'hin hin eh chao eh lah.. lu bei kao kun nia..' yahor, i also think so.. gotta recharge~

fishing day

suddenly feel like going fishing..........

ok.. going going..

what lies in front of me.. a calm placid lake.. so beautifully formed that i almost thought it could be one of the world's 7 wonders. i spot a lofty tree, silhouette against some mild sunshine. i easily settle myself below the shed.. unpacking my bag pack.. look what i've got here.. some bread crumbs, no worms no shrimps (i dont kill..), some dark choc, some tidbits, some icy beer, some orange juice with pulps, some mineral water, compass, some banana fritters, some cheese and egg sandwiches, some ceasar salad, some butter biscuits, my hat, polarized sunglasses, sunblock (do i need it..?).. of cos not to forget the 'foffessional' fishing rod.

am i all set? yes i bet i do! setting up the fishing rod without hook, i gently fix the bread crumbs on to it.. i cast off the rod into the serenity, and break the mirror of reflection of the lake. i couldnt envision if there are fishes or not, underneath the body of water.. well.. fishing is like a box of chocolates, u never know what u gonna get..

i sit down on the picnic mat in the most relaxing manner.. patiently waiting for the surprise i'll be getting from the mystery of the lake.. casually letting the cool breeze embracing me.. feeling the wonderful presence of the sunshine and cool breeze.. suddenly i feel that my rod is moving.. fishes come nibbling on the bread crumbs! i enjoy watching them nibbling for food mindlessly.. they do not worry about food, they do not worry about making money to buy food, they do not worry about getting up late, they do not worry about anything.. all they need to do.. is just to be fishes!!

i replenish the bread crumbs.. more and more fishes come dropping by.. hey dearies, if u eat, so do i.. while feeding them, i unpack my goodies and drinks.. i've so many fishes friends to join me.. i open my dark choc, savoring in great pleasure.. well hey, this is yummy, i wish u could try too! do u all want to try? can u all eat choc? will u die of eating dark choc?

they seem to look up at me.. eyes focusing on the piece of dark choc.. mouths watering, with saliva.. they seem so keen to taste it that they are soaked in excitement.. i can feel that they are anxiously wet.

i gradually clear off the bread crumbs and replace with dark choc.. once i put down the rod, they come storming in.. i almost lost control. cool down cool down, everyone has a bit.. if u still behave like that, im gonna mm choy u leh.. they seem to read me, slowing their paces. i drink the icy beer to quench my thirst.. aHhh~ heaven! fishes look up at me.. no dearie, im not gonna give u any beer.. fishes arent meant for drinking.

so much energy wasted.. im starting to enjoy my ceasar salad, yum yum~ that's appetizer. slanting against the tree trunk.. the whole place is just so clean! looking at the swarm of birds flying across the bright blue sky.. i crunch on my prepared tidbits.. what a nice scene! where's my sandwich? what is picnic without sandwiches? wooo.. i put the cheesy sandwich in my mouth, big big bite.. the cheese melts in the warmth temperature of the mouth.. jawing the eggs and bread with melted cheese.. the marvellously blended food is being passed down to my esophagus.. i hold the orange juice with generous pulps and gurgle it heartily to my delight.

i think i should be walking around for digestion.. i pack my goodies in my bag.. leaving the rod there, i walk around the lake.. there is a small bridge connecting to a small shelter hut at the side of the lake.. im biting off banana fritters in the slowest motion, letting them die with extreme glory. i see some water lilies.. lovely! the wind blows and they move gracefully.. i just casually sit on the bridge observing them.. they seem to notice my presence and dance affectionately. cheers, i finish off my orange juice.

i stand up and walking towards the lofty tree. having dark choc dissolving in my mouth, ooh.. this is the best! i dance with joy~ i settle down again under the lofty tree.. i share my choc with the fishes, again, they dance with joy too. the sky is gradually changing its attire now.. from blue to orange yellow.. the york of the sun hanging just above the boundless horizon outstands all earthly things.. i stand in awe.. the scene is so breathtaking that it's beyond words.. im motionless with the choc still in my hand and another in my mouth melting at its own pleasure.

i capture the picturesque view in my eyes.. frames by frames.. until the sun hides below the horizon, breathless! i feel all relaxed~!

thank you angels

i cant believe it's 5th tomorrow.. oh no oh no.. so fast!! time comes so fast.. it's a day to make important decision. May is the month..

my dearest families..
my dearest uncles, aunties, church committees, brothers and sisters in Christ..
my dearest relatives..
my dearest bestie, close friends, ji muis, heng tais, best friends, good friends, friends..

thank you for committing yourselves in helping so much for the preparation.. sorry.. sorry.. i've been so unconcerned.. because i wasnt prepared, i wasnt ready.. sorry that i've been quite uninvolved.. even though i still couldnt completely accept it yet.. still cant really believe it yet.. but give me some time to adjust.. i'll be following up with all the involvements, i'll be taking parts, i'll be very concerned, i wanna join u all..

"to be the most relax person on that day".. "u r our beloved daughter/spiritual daughter/sister/friend" are the things u all said to me.. im truly touched for everything that u all have done for me unconditionally.. truly truly touched..

thank you for loving me.. thank you all of u for loving me and making me feel belonged.. making me feel so important.. im jus a little ordinary girl but gained so much of love from u all.. i really do love all of u from the bottom of my heart.. thank you for the sacrifices and commitments u all have given me.. i truly appreciate it.. i wont do anything to hurt u all.. thank you for the love.. lets work things out together.. together lets be blissfully happy.. God will divinely bless us all, because all of u r just so awesome beyond words.. all of u are angels that God sent for me.. my beloved angels.. thank you for always wrapping me up with all of your mighty wings!

时间过了就不要后悔，也不要说对不起。至少曾经拥有那时光，那是快乐幸福的。大家要加油哦。

nice story

:: got this from aunty khim ♥ hugs ::

An elderly man in Mumbai calls his son in New York and says,
'I hate to ruin your day son, but I have to tell you that your mother and I are getting a divorce; 35 years of marriage... and that much misery is enough!'

'Dad, what are you talking about?' the son screams.

'We can't stand the sight of each other any longer,' the old man says.

'We're sick of each other, and I'm sick of talking about this, so you call your sister in Hong Kong and tell her!'

Frantic, the son calls his sister, who explodes on the phone.
'Like heck they're getting divorced,' she shouts, 'I'll take care of this.'

She calls Mumbai immediately, and screams at the old man,
'You are not getting divorced. Don't do a single thing until I get there. I'm calling my brother back, and we'll both be there tomorrow. Until then , don't do a thing, DO YOU HEAR??'
and she hangs up.

The old man hangs up his phone and turns to his wife.
'Okay', he says, 'It's all set. They're both coming for Deepavali and paying their own airfare!!'

MORAL:
No man / woman is busy in this world all 365 days.

The sky is not going to fall down if you take few days LEAVE and meet your dear ones.

OFFICE WORK IS NOT EVERYTHING IN LIFE
and
MONEY MAKING IS NOT EVERYTHING IN LIFE.

Happy moments, praise God.

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

oOhH...

diary u sleep dy..? oh no.. it's so fast.. time's so fast!! just feel.. it's so fast.. ask anyone, they can tell this is how i feel.. can stop for a while, pls pls pls..? oohh.. hope everything's fine!! sorry to wake u up.. u can sleep back now heehee

dear diary

Dear Diary..

i've ample things to express, but im lost at words.. i've limited vocabs.. i searched but found none that i could verbally express perfectly.. diary i wanna talk to u yday but i didnt come n look for u.. i was thinking i could tell u a lot when i come n look for u now, but it's jus speechless.. ahh this is so weird! u know what i wanna say or not?

diary i've been so busy.. why hor.. sometimes u jus don understand what life is.. what is the purpose.. working working working, making money making money making money, chilling out chilling out chilling out, happy happy happy, sad sad sad, weird weird weird.. what r we doing here? getting busy from morning till night then sleep, and having the same repetitious itinerary.. sit down idle n think.. what am i doing? what is this all about? what is time? what is this? what is that? who am i?.. i think Mother Teresa could explain about life, but she aint here anymore.. i dunno Mother Teresa personally, but i think u rock!

human memory can store forever.. 10 years, 7 years, 1 year.. no expiry.. sorry mr bill, ur creation is finite and could go corrupted or formatted. but human memory is amazingly awesome.. it stores visibly yet invisibly, distinctively yet vaguely, quintessentially yet obscurely.. pieces could be collected n regained, at times.. how amazing!

and time flies in a blink of eyes.. reminiscing the moments when i was still a little squirt n go on..n go on.. it's jus like yesterday's! ok maybe not yesterday.. that's pretty exaggerating.. well figure of speech haha. well.. diary, ppl always complain time passes like nobody business.. but sometimes when it's jus passed, say for a week, u actually feel it to be few centuries.. a lot longer than jus merely a week.. so this is called time flies or time halts har?

and the time it elapses for anticipation seems to take forever.. esp things that u've been excited and looking forward to.. cant wait for the time to arrive.. hoping the time comes faster.. but in the bottom of the heart, u know (or maybe the excitement is way too immense that u choose not to know) that once u've that anticipation and excitement right in front of u.. it's gonna fade in a while, and that, takes only a blink of eyes.. diary it's so contradicting u know.. wishing it fast to come, slow during arrival, and stop at part.. it takes so much preparation of excitement for a short anticipation n it ends.. so this is called happy time passes faster har?

haha.. human is such a complicated and sophisticated creature, hard to understand eh~ i don think u do understand, cos u r jus a diary.. wonder if u've got brain or mind to ponder? ooh no.. that's lame.. i'll leave ur brain alone.

the weather has been gloomy since a couple of sunshine days last week.. everytime u look at the sky, it's portraying melancholy.. it's such a somber little thing haha.. the sky is also a very emotional being.. utterly unpredictable!! scorching hot at this moment.. raining cats n dogs the next.. raining not only cats n dogs, elephants n lions too.. the whole animals in zoo r coming out, raining!!

randomly took pics.. this camera is such a dear fren~

:: the air is filled with high density of moist (been raining.. where r u sunshine?).. that they 'chose' with no option to be wet in the bathroom..

:: opposite waterfront.. the building 'domiciles' itself comfortably in that big 'region'
:: waterfront (..careful.. there's water in front..)
:: Ipoh Town Kopitiam White Coffee in Kch.. how does Kch Town Cafe Black Milk in Ipoh sound?
:: this is lovely.. the jelly babies were initially pettily minute and solid hard before being contacted with water.. put the jelly babies into the pretty jar, filling up approximately 10.8893% of the jar.. pour a measurable volume of water into the jar (not filling up the whole jar la..).. observe.. observe.. patiently.. they grow! they grew! they are growing! they were glowing! they have grown!! see.. aint them lovely?~
:: this is such a dearie.. u talk to it, it plays u music.. it plays depending on ur mood.. great fren to talk with, in different medium of language.. thanks to the marvellous invention!
:: it's so tempting.. so alluring.. i can easily finish it with ease, i've a born talent in eating choc :P~ (should i be proud of this born talent?..) but i havent unsealed it yet.. consumable food = once consumed, it's perished.. mm seh tak eat..
:: same 'choc theory' as abovementioned.. though this can be found easily.. but still mm seh tak eat..
:: limited edition kit kat dark choc.. it's seasonal, and i think can only be found in airport.. mm seh tak eat..
:: look how small the cleanser could be..
:: mr buffett has really got an awesome book there! the points are concise.. n u cannot read it stupidly.. i give 4 thumbs up (why 4? oo.. 2 thumbs on the hands, and 2 thumbs on the feet.. hence, 4!) it leaves ur mind to linger.. can also be used for intellectual arguments
diary.. don laugh.. i know i've typed a whole lot n u've been listening a whole lot, but i was saying i was speechless right..? it's still speechless.. to flip through the whole dictionary i couldnt find a suitable word..

if u come to life diary i would have plenty more to talk on, if im able to find any descriptive words.. ehh, cannot ehh...!!! u r a diary.. if u come to life, i would be scared till pengsan.. the idea was absolutely eerie!! ok, forget what i've mentioned ya.. u better don come to life, jus be a diary.. thanks.. *even though u r a diary.. a lifeless one.. but still u r sweet~ thanks*