granny be strong

The nerve pain in the gum is unbearable.. she lies there quietly, without a word or sound of grumbling.. she couldnt really bite/chew on food, for the pain she has to endure is way beyond any words could describe. at times, tears go rolling down her cheeks.. she bears, she takes it all by herself..

She likes to talk.. about her old tales, about history, about her past.. when she was so much younger and stronger.. perhaps i could say she's talkative, but she couldnt talk.. because of the pain.. she presses her fingers wrapped in handerchief on her gum.. pressing very very hard, she's thinking if she could numb the nerve pain by implying external pain.. she couldnt..

She could hardly bite any food.. she's relying on soft, watery food or drinks..

We visited her the other day.. her nerve pain was reduced.. but she looked so fragile and frail.. she had been vomitting for the past few days.. it's either u get nerve pain or u vomit.. she lost weight.. she sat up when she saw us.. she's very sweet.. very understanding..

After a while, she said she's tired.. she needed to lie down.. but she carried on talking.. she looked at me with tender eyes, she asked.. "do u understand me?" im learning to pick up the dialect.. i couldnt completely understand, but from the tone of voice, i know it's something touching and meaningful.. i know it's meant well, i felt it with my heart..

Granny.. u must be strong.. u wanna see us in white suit.. we are going to wear it.. i know u r very happy but u r too weak to smile broadly..

Granny.. u must have the determination.. i know u r very exhausted of fighting with the disease.. i know u r bearing intolerable pain.. i know where u want to go.. i know u always think of us.. i know u'll be happy..

We love you granny.. u must be strong.. dear God, we pray for your loving grace and healing hands to be upon granny.. amen.